I came across this while thinking about being at a rock concert (so random, yeah... I dunno), which led to the homecoming dance where I was a wallflower, and the uncomfortable, out-of-place feeling I had then, and the more recent prom dance, where I managed to just ignore those questions of what I look like, and what I appear to be, and if I look stupid, etc. That was what enabled me to dance and not be a wallflower again. Meh. The question now is how to... well, let go. 'Cept I'm afraid I might let go too much and never regain control, and become one of the stupid gibbering masses that seem ever so present.
Dude, I sound like a gibbering idiot sometimes online. Imagine what it'd be like to have me like that IRL.
Damn fine balance.
